Friday, October 30, 2009

Picking Up the Pieces....

Friday night, alone.... At this hour, I know what I'm usually doing. Having a conversation with a special person. Well, not tonight. Instead, I spend time alone in an empty apartment with a dog. Not much of a conservation there. The phone hasn't rang for hours. No one is at the door. The e-mail picks up only spam. All I hear is the sound of the fans kicking in the venting system.

Out of boredom, I watch Forrest Gump on TV. I love the movie. It's a classic! While I was watching the movie, I was noticing the ironies in it and how it relates to my life. In a way, I can relate to Forrest and Jenny's love affair. Sadly, the end result will not be the same. Which made me cry...

Things been happening in my life lately that really got me thinking. Thinking about things like- What kind of man am I? Where am I at this point of life? Why did I do that? Ect. Recently, I've made some bad choices that affected my outlook in my life. The one's I regret dearly. I've made these these choices out of fear, anger, desperation and insecurity. I've done things totally way out of my character. Little did I know, the cause and the ripple effect that I created.

The choices I've made led me to this point. I lost the woman I loved and burned many bridges around me. I'm riding an emotional roller coaster that I have a deep desire to get off.

Saturday morning- I wake up and face the day alone. As I look back at I what wrote, all of this is not in vain. I've learned some valuable lessons here. I'm going have to use my head better than letting my emotions get the better of me. I'm going have to trust in a situation better. And that the truth hurts no matter how you "fix" it.

Today, I'm going start off with a clean slate, a fresh start, and try to resume a normal life. Well, off to finish unpacking....

Sick as a Dog

Been sick all week long...Starting to feel better now.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Let It Be


Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Drunken Squirrel

I got this video from the JTI's famous psychic Madam Zoltar. The people who posted the above video noted: “This squirrel in a Minneapolis neighborhood was drunk from eating fermented pumpkins. THIS SQUIRREL WAS FINE THE NEXT DAY. Fermentation is how alcohol is made and animals get drunk in nature all the time.” Thought it was kind of neat to watch!

Monday, October 26, 2009

Packers Week#7

The Packers stomped the Cleveland Browns 31-3. Great game! The first one I saw in a while.

U2 at the Rose Bowl

Anybody out there in blogland catch the U2 broadcast at the Rose Bowl in Pasadena, CA last night? I only caught the first part of it. Had to go bed early... From the setlist I've read, it sounded like an impressive show!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Dreams, I'll Never See

I have now closed an important chapter in my lifebook. A chapter filled with great joy and happiness Those were the best of times. Grave mistakes were made and things turned for the worse. Things got ugly. Things ended. It's over now. I will always remember the good times. They were special to me.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Autumn Lake

Autumn is about at it's peak around here. The air is cool and crisp. The colors are flying! Here's a song that I wrote many years ago sitting by the fireplace Up North. Hope you like it...Enjoy!

Autumn Lake

Flying colors are in the trees
A soft wind continues to blow
I was just thinking about my babe
She warms my heart and turns it to gold

I was sitting by the fireplace
With the lady I love so dear
Making vows that last a lifetime
I gave her a soft loving kiss

Looking outside the window
The wind is starting to get colder
A snowflake falls from the sky
Winter's rolling along the way

Oh babe, you're here to keep me warm
Your soft embrace touches my skin
The fire is snapping and crackling
As together we drink our wine

I wish we can stay much longer
But I know that you will change your mind
I love you more than I can say
And I know that you love me too

Stay the night and I'll keep you warm
Gentle as I always will be
You know that my heart would always be there
You are my hun and I love you so

I wish this night would last forever
At least until tomorrows gone
Maybe this might last forever
With our love, I'm sure that we could....

Wishing the sun to stand still...
Reaching out-to our hearts-dreaming....

Monday, October 5, 2009

Packers Week # 4

The Green Bay Packers lost the Brett Farve led Minnesota Vikings 30-20 in a good game. Both sides made some great plays. Only wish Farve still played for the Packers....

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Life Itself

My girlfriend sent me this video. It has meaning to us.