Friday night, alone.... At this hour, I know what I'm usually doing. Having a conversation with a special person. Well, not tonight. Instead, I spend time alone in an empty apartment with a dog. Not much of a conservation there. The phone hasn't rang for hours. No one is at the door. The e-mail picks up only spam. All I hear is the sound of the fans kicking in the venting system.
Out of boredom, I watch Forrest Gump on TV. I love the movie. It's a classic! While I was watching the movie, I was noticing the ironies in it and how it relates to my life. In a way, I can relate to Forrest and Jenny's love affair. Sadly, the end result will not be the same. Which made me cry...
Things been happening in my life lately that really got me thinking. Thinking about things like- What kind of man am I? Where am I at this point of life? Why did I do that? Ect. Recently, I've made some bad choices that affected my outlook in my life. The one's I regret dearly. I've made these these choices out of fear, anger, desperation and insecurity. I've done things totally way out of my character. Little did I know, the cause and the ripple effect that I created.
The choices I've made led me to this point. I lost the woman I loved and burned many bridges around me. I'm riding an emotional roller coaster that I have a deep desire to get off.
Saturday morning- I wake up and face the day alone. As I look back at I what wrote, all of this is not in vain. I've learned some valuable lessons here. I'm going have to use my head better than letting my emotions get the better of me. I'm going have to trust in a situation better. And that the truth hurts no matter how you "fix" it.
Today, I'm going start off with a clean slate, a fresh start, and try to resume a normal life. Well, off to finish unpacking....
Friday, October 30, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
I got this video from the JTI's famous psychic Madam Zoltar. The people who posted the above video noted: “This squirrel in a Minneapolis neighborhood was drunk from eating fermented pumpkins. THIS SQUIRREL WAS FINE THE NEXT DAY. Fermentation is how alcohol is made and animals get drunk in nature all the time.” Thought it was kind of neat to watch!
Monday, October 26, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
I have now closed an important chapter in my lifebook. A chapter filled with great joy and happiness Those were the best of times. Grave mistakes were made and things turned for the worse. Things got ugly. Things ended. It's over now. I will always remember the good times. They were special to me.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Autumn is about at it's peak around here. The air is cool and crisp. The colors are flying! Here's a song that I wrote many years ago sitting by the fireplace Up North. Hope you like it...Enjoy!
Flying colors are in the trees
A soft wind continues to blow
I was just thinking about my babe
She warms my heart and turns it to gold
I was sitting by the fireplace
With the lady I love so dear
Making vows that last a lifetime
I gave her a soft loving kiss
Looking outside the window
The wind is starting to get colder
A snowflake falls from the sky
Winter's rolling along the way
Oh babe, you're here to keep me warm
Your soft embrace touches my skin
The fire is snapping and crackling
As together we drink our wine
I wish we can stay much longer
But I know that you will change your mind
I love you more than I can say
And I know that you love me too
Stay the night and I'll keep you warm
Gentle as I always will be
You know that my heart would always be there
You are my hun and I love you so
I wish this night would last forever
At least until tomorrows gone
Maybe this might last forever
With our love, I'm sure that we could....
Wishing the sun to stand still...
Reaching out-to our hearts-dreaming....